Take some time and put some thought into what you are doing, and you can have it actually express the emotion you desire. While you might have intense feelings while typing something out, it takes careful thought to really make something blare out its message. Learn to let your feelings grow in a controlled positive manner, and you might be surprised at the quality of what you write.
Keep smiling. Don't be afraid to let them know that you are really crazy.
Fantasy puts more requirements on the writer than any other fiction, because the world must be made as real before anything else can be real.
Adult Christian fiction quite different than all the usual lame stuff in that market. "Dilemma of Dreams" now in hard back.